Archive for March, 2012


I want to wear your essence like a coat on a winters day
I want to breathe your energy like a flower takes in the rain
I want to hear your soul like a bird rides the wind
I want to taste your presense like an ocean devours the sands.

Still a work in progress…

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Although it may seem odd or even rude to admit,
Before I met you,
You weren’t even a blip…
On my radar of life, I had no clue.
Not a inkling, not a notion.
It was pure chance that I was there,
Pure fate that had me pay that fare.
While others follow and manipulate
Just longing for the ride,
I came along and landed me at your side.
I knew nothing about you,
Yet I saw something rare.
That beautiful light shining there.
The way you listen… and apply what you hear.
How you teach without direction,
And touch without affection.
The raw openneess you offered siletly, subconsciously.
You see…I love your heart,  I don’t care who you are,
Who you were,
Who you will be…
I love your heart,
For it will forever be.

By chance I met a golden heart,

by chance I felt its golden beat,

by chance I’d know its golden heat,

By chance I heard its golden cry,

by chance I saw it soar on high,

By chance I’d touch its golden soul.

This world…This life….
What if, there is no tomorrow?
I want to dance in the rain…
Sing to the sea…
Fly with the wind,
And live 2 your beat!

I am no stranger to paranormal activity (lol not the movie but real events lmao) I have been around or experienced things on and off since I was a kid. Anyhow, I do have a 3 1/2 yr old, we have 2 dogs a pitbull and a yorkie, 2 parakeets, a snake and a frog, oh and a beta fish. lol We have only lived here since November so I really don’t know anything about the history of the house, although we do live like 5 blocks from Normans OU campus and campus corner… so I wouldn’t doubt a hearty history. Here’s what happened the other day, I had just gotten off of skype with friends, I was about to go to bed but was fiddling with my cell phone on a doodle app when one of my son’s toys, a little people fire truck started going off, I looked up from my phone and it was 2:11am, I sat there for a min waiting to see if it would just stop. But it didn’t so I got up and went into the living room thinking maybe it was in the toy box and was maybe being set off by other toys on it… that was NOT the case, the toy was sitting on the shelf not touch by any thing else visible. And it was still making the sounds while I stood there in front of it! So I unlocked my phone, turned on the camera to record and the second I hit record it STOPPED! (I posted that video to my facebook, here is the link: Video of  toy ) Now the first time I really acknowledged that something was going on was a month or so ago, I was lying in my bed reading a book, my clock radio was playing on the classical music channel, the only light in the room was on (a lamp) in the corner by the door, and the area heater was on as well near the lamp on the stairs…as I was lying there reading the light (2 bulbs btw) turned off, I sat there for a sec looked at the clock radio, numbers still light and music still playing, heater light still on and it was still blowing, about a minute and a half later the light turned back on. I got up and walked into the house, across the living room and down the hall to my oldest son and his girlfriends room, he was not there and she was sound asleep in bed! So I called my son to see if he maybe was outside and tripped a breaker or something (still trying to reason) lol but when he answered I found he was at walmart and no where near the house! When we first moved into this house my and the 3 yr old were in the “add on” room that used to be the garage I think, recently my friend moved out and so we moved into the 2nd bedroom from that add on room…. and since then I have noticed that all of a sudden my 3 yr old is back to sleeping soundly all night long, he doesn’t wake up crying or screaming anymore at night either, not even when I am sitting in the same room talking on skype or ventrillo with friends! And I realize now that all that started when we moved into this house and into that room.

I may add more to this later, as I have enlisted the help of a local “ghost hunting” group, I sent this story to them and am waiting on a reply. We shall see how it plays out. Until next time.

Unethically Unethical Ethic’s

Recently I had an experience with one of my children where she was accused of doing something unethical although her actions were not unethical. But that is the way they were accusing her of being! In this situation, she was forced to write a paper stating what unethical means and giving examples of how her behavior was unethical.

For this particular blog/rand, I have decided that I am going to do this ethically unethical ethics theme simply because it is completely and utterly unethical to try to teach someone how not to be, when in fact you are the epitome of what being unethical is and I am highly freaking annoyed at the entire situation there, as I am with pretty much everything that goes on with her fathers lack of ethics, I  despise her father for the things that he has done, continues to do, the crap that he says and how he lives his life and what he is instilling in our daughters, and in reality not instilling in our daughters, and so I think what I’m going to do is look up the word unethical and start from there!

Dictionary.com says: unethical 1st:  is lacking the moral principles unwilling to adhere to proper rules of conduct. 2nd: not in the cord with the standards of the profession she treated patients outside in the area of her training and the appropriate medical organization punished her  unethical behavior.

Thus one would have to assume that unethical behavior is any of the following examples:

If you are married and you have sex with a person who is not your husband or wife that is unethical behavior if you are single yet in a relationship with a woman or man and you will indulge in repeated sexual and emotional relationships with people who are not you or boyfriend or girlfriend you are unethical

Unethical would be a father taking his children away from their loving and protective good mother by lying manipulating and using our judicial system in order to make it seem as though the mother wasn’t a good mother, just so you wouldn’t have to pay child support, and could claim them on your taxes as well as let others claim them on taxes so that you get money you are not really entitled to, yes that IS unethical! Also, illegal I might add!

Another example of unethical would be if you are in a relationship a “committed” relationship and living with your girlfriend and during Christmas you take your children over to another woman’s house who you were also having a relationship with but you told the girl you live with that this person that you’re going to see with your children is family even though she is not you spend Christmas eve and Christmas with this second girlfriend in front of your children you sleep with this second girlfriend in her room in her bed and then you tell your children to keep it to themselves that is unethical!

Unethical is being married to your second wife and lying to everyone that will listen about how horrible your 1st wife was and to continue during your second marriage you start a relationship with another woman whom you worked with briefly the few brief times you’ve worked and you lied to her and told her that your current wife was not your wife but your cousin, that you were just trying to help her out in life and that you didn’t have any children although you had multiple children.. as in the four children and to continue on with this unethical explanation it is furthermore unethical that you would once again lie to this girlfriend that you started seeing at your job and you would give her your 1st wife’s phone number and have her calling and harassing her and lying and calling her names and saying things to her that make absolutely no sense as well as have nothing to do with her and yet this was absolutely you’re unethical behavior, portrayed by you to be ethical! Or how about instead of paying child support and helping support your children with your 1st wife, instead you pay the girlfriends bills, car payments and such! While your 2nd wife or in your lies “cousin” goes to work everyday and pays all the bills at the home you share with her and you children there!

Oh yes and I have much more to go with that,  unethical my dear! To be married to your first wife and to start having sexual relations and  emotional relations with your brothers fiancée  (your “cousin” as you said) it is unethical for you to have two children with your current wife and then get another woman (your “cousin”) pregnant while you are still with and married to your first wife and then get your wife pregnant yet again and then get your wife pregnant yet again and yes once again then get your girlfriend(or “cousin”) on the side pregnant again these are all examples on being unethical now don’t get me wrong because I don’t judge I don’t care I’ve said it 1 million times I could not care less who is in your life, who you’re spending your time with, what you’re doing while you’re spending said time, I simply don’t care! But what I do care about is that you would have the audacity to try to teach my child that something that she did when she was 100% right in doing you attempt to chastise her and make her believe that her actions work on ethical! Will I’m here to tell you they were not! But if our child ever does show any signs of unethical behavior, I can guarantee that she learned that behavior… oh yes she learned how to be an unethical being by you the devil incarnate!  You can gladly sit straight up in your chair, square your shoulders back and puff up your chest because you my dear ex-husband you were the one who set the best example on how to be unethical! You sir are the King douche bag of being unethical, everything you do is unethical, everything you say is unethical, everything you think is unethical, your entire being is unethical! The very air that seeps from your lungs and out of your mouth and nose is unethical and sadly to me that is not the only negative example you have set that our children have picked up, there are plenty more but I’ll save those for another blog. But for right now, and the sake of our children learning REALLY what unethical is and means,  I wanted to make sure that I set the record straight my daughter was not unethical actually what she did was VERY ethical! She is unhappy she has been abused and mistreated, used, lied to, browbeaten, made fun of and so much more by the very people, and the very hands that should actually be protecting her from these things and yet your maniacal, menacing, madness and love for lies and deceit and hatred, yes instead you teach and taught them how to be like you! But in all my joy I can truly say that what she did was absolutely not like you it was not unethical it was very much ethical and when the smoke clears and the judge hears the truth of all things that you’ve done all the ways that you’ve manipulated and used that system to abuse and use your own children my greatest joy will be when they are with me or even just she is with me!

You, Mr. Dread are the most unethical human being I have ever encountered in all my life and I hope and I pray to never ever encounter another sick bastard such as you!  I do take solace in one fact though and that is,  that I never let you ruin me the way you ruined others and thankfully thus far our son is not ruined and I pray that our daughters will not be either with no thanks to you, so please continue on with your unethical lifestyle, please continue on with your charades and your play toys, please continue on being the sociopath that we all know you are, because at least… you are consistent at that.

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