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Nobody

You say nobody wants you but you know this isn’t quite true…..

You try and try to keep them at bay, pissin em off and sending em away…

You say you’re nobody, but I’m nobody too…

And this nobody did want you…

Nobody listens, nobody cares, nobody pays attention to the hearts bleeding red…

Nobody knows, nobody sees, nobody’s around when the soul finally leaves…

I know I’m nobody just like you, but you seem to be lost in your nobody zoo….

Nobody’s here, nobody’s there, but the more I seek the more I find nobody’s everywhere.

This nobody is okay, with nobody to hear, the nobody to share, the nobody whi cares.

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Wisdom

Love is over rated, fairy tales are books, life is a box of chocolates, live for today, u might not get tomorrow!

Breathe

I cant breathe
No air
Im drowning
No air
Fighting
No air
Crying
No air
Hurting
No air
Sobbing
No air
Screaming
No air
Dying
No air
Stillness
No air

Screaming, madness, hatred, violent…..

Quite….

Silence, sanity, apathy, kindness…

Quite…

Crashing, thrashing, shaking, pounding….

Quite….

Stillness, surrender, tranquil, stroking….

Quite….

Racing, banging, choking….pulsing…..

Quite

Careful

I know it may not seem so but I am fragile. I’m as soft as a lily and tender as the water colored sky.

I realize I put up a good front. My skill in deception in that can not be met.

It may not be obvious but, I’m as delicate as I am strong.

It my be hard to believe but, just as the ancient willows and oak trees my armor give way.

Be gentle my sweet, handle with care. For my strength can be broken and my charity lost.

They say what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger, but what of the one that doesn’t make you stronger but instead kills you.

Lessons

I’m gonna make you miss me….. Wish you never left me….

I’m gonna make you want me….. regret all the times you beset me….

I’m gonna make you hunger me….. impossible to forget me…

I’m gonna make you thirst me…. no where to escape me….

You thought I’d stay down forever, never! You thought I’d never make it, mistake it! You mistook me for a toy, kill  joy.

Now I’m on a roll, the music alive in my soul. Now I’m running free, nothing but god can stop me. Now I’m believing, ready to start reaching.

Open my mouth, begin teaching. You should have had patience, you should have kept focus. Actions, making the difference.

Soon you’ll regret it, don’t you fret it….

I’m gonna make you miss me….. Wish you never left me….

I’m gonna make you want me….. regret all the times you beset me….

I’m gonna make you hunger me….. impossible to forget me…

I’m gonna make you thirst me…. no where to escape me….

Sometimes I wonder what I’m doing wrong, I over think things. I super analyze and misinterpret! I over indulge, I want too much, I need to hard, I expect it all…. am disappointed with what I get.

Maybe, I’m just like everyone else. Only I admit I do these things. Even if it screw everything up. Even if it cause the opposite reaction that I expect.

Sometimes I wonder, what can I do to make it all right. But alas I find myself in the same vicious cycle, over thinking, super analyzing, misinterpreting, over indulging…..

Wanting too much, needing too hard, expecting it all and disappointed in the end.

Maybe, I’m just like everyone else. Denying I’m to blame. Making it everyone’s fault but my own. Even if my over thinking, super analyzing, misinterpreting, over indulgence…..

My wanting too much, needing too hard and expecting it all only to be disappointed with the outcome, is the beginning and the end….

Darkness reached across my mind, enveloping,
Consuming all hope, love and dream.
There was nothing but the darkness within my existence.
Growing and spreading like a deadly virus,
Until it would consume even my breath.
Replacing life giving oxygen,
Choking, violent gasps only finding more darkness.
Then by chance, a glimmer appeared, when I heard your voice, felt your touch….
The darkness fades, pushed back by growing sparks.
Silhouettes dance as the darkness falls away.
Succumbing to, contorted by,
Fuzzy impressions of joy, happiness, life.
Until at last the darkness was no more.
Slipped off into the abyss, consumed by….. your light.
Written March 13th 2008
Edited April 8th 2012

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